Hello, it's Hiro.
This is my experience.
In the winter of 2020, I found quite a few influencers I liked who purchased and took supplements on the Internet on a site called “I Herb”. Especially.
From winter 2020 to spring 2021, I took more than 20 types of supplements every day.
Then I lost my mental balance.
Specific symptoms include:
・Fear of the dentist (Fear of medical examinations while lying down, fear of being unable to breathe by opening the mouth for a long time)
・I'm afraid of driving (What should I do if I get stuck in a traffic jam on the way? What should I do if I need to go to the toilet? What should I do if someone I don't know knocks?)
・Tunnel (dark, unable to breathe)
・Small room (feeling trapped, unable to breathe)
・Buildings with more than two stories (fear of not being able to get out right away)
・Train (I can't open the window, I can't breathe)
・Buses, airplanes (anxiety about not being able to control driving and not being able to go outside when you want)
When I went to the psychosomatic department and told the doctor about my symptoms, I was definitely diagnosed with panic disorder.
Looking back, I couldn't find any other reason for the sudden onset of these symptoms, other than overdosing on supplements.
Stayed in a hotel to try exposure therapy
If things continue like this, it will be difficult for me to lead a normal life, so I decide to stay at a hotel in Shinjuku in order to heal quickly.
Stayed on the 12th floor of the Daiwa Roynet Hotel in Nishi-Shinjuku.
*Daiwa Roynet Hotel is a wonderful hotel.
No problem at noon.
At night, I suddenly becomes frightened.
It became difficult to breathe, and I persisted for about an hour, but it was impossible, so I left the hotel after 12:00.
I hated the situation I was in, called my foreign friends, and started crying while talking to them...
Still, I was afraid to go back to my room, so I couldn't go back until 6:00 in the morning.
If it's a room with morning sunlight, it's okay.
I felt very disgusted and miserable that I was a person who could not even stay at a hotel.
Driving to Osaka to try exposure therapy
It was fine until I crossed Aichi prefecture, but in Mie prefecture weekday mornings around 6:00 am there is always a heavy traffic jam with trucks.
I was stuck in traffic, I couldn't go home right away, and I couldn't breathe because of all kinds of anxiety.
Every time I found a convenience store, I stopped at a convenience store every 500m, waited until my heart calmed down, and continued driving.
Eventually, I opened the window and put my face outside as much as possible to breathe, and it gradually stabilized.
Even so, I drove only 300 kilometers from my house to Osaka, and arrived at night.
I left at 4:30 in the morning, but I arrived in Osaka at night and I couldn't do anything.
Still, the fact that I was able to come all the way to Osaka gave me a lot of confidence. (A big improvement compared to staying out all night in a hotel in Shinjuku without being able to sleep.)
To avoid panic disorder
I think there are many things that only people who have suffered from panic disorder can understand, but for me, the shock was like the end of my life.
To be honest, it's possible to live a normal life with a girl who abides by restrictions
My situation,
・Transportation by car (no trains or buses)
・Do not stay overnight (hotels on the second floor or higher are NG)
・ Almost all amusement park attractions are NG, elevators
·crowd
・Browse books with negative content
but,
I can't fly = I can't go abroad
This was the most shocking thing, and even as I write this article, I haven't been able to get on the plane yet.
It's been 8 months since I first became aware of the symptoms, and it's much easier now than when I was at my peak, but even now I can only take trains that stop at every station.
Before I get on the train, I'm always in a cold sweat and desperate to keep my breath.
Appropriate intake of supplements
当At that time, I was buying and taking all the supplements recommended by various influencers.
At its peak, there were more than 20 types, and I only had a rough idea of their effects.
I'm down to 7 now. Compared to the peak time, the balance of the mind is no longer clearly collapsed.
Lastly
It's been 8 months since I became aware of my panic disorder, and I'm still not completely cured.
It makes me uneasy to think when I will be able to live the way I used to.
Mental illness is a very scary disease because it is difficult to talk to people, and there are conflicts between life and reality.
In order to prevent even one person like me from increasing, I hope that you will take supplements in appropriate amounts and that you will be healthy both mentally and physically.
regards,
hiro
References, reference videos
Is it okay for Japanese people to take supplements from America, the superpower of supplements?
https://www.clinicsn.com/contents/doctors-supplement/
For those who use health food ~Danger of overdose~
https://hfnet.nibiohn.go.jp/contents/detail138.html
Panic disorder. Fear of dying. Acute anxiety and seizures. This disease changed my life 180 degrees.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCMwVuzvb4k
All of them are very helpful. I hope you will read it.
Thanks.
